Question from a Site Viewer
I’m living a life of sin . . .
I have had a terrible past for twenty years. I told many lies and gave many false testimonies in God’s name. I tried to earn His love because I thought he abandoned me. I also once said that it was a lie that the Holy Spirit comforts people because I was in such pain. I am terrified of hell! I have many more sins than I have mentioned. I have lived a life of sin. I wonder if I was ever truly saved. I long for God but am afraid that I am beyond all hope and forever rejected. If I could only know that I am forgiven. I have repented of all sins I know of in utter brokenness but I feel hardened and unfit for God’s kingdom.
Faith is counting God to be true to His promises. Our sins may pile up to the skies, but He has promised forgiveness to those who confess and forsake their sins. Either He is true or He is a liar. God cannot lie, which leaves the only option left being that He is true. Therefore, this leaves us with the decision either to believe or not to believe in truth.
I understand that having repented of a life of sin, it is hard to accept that one would forgive us so freely. We often struggle with such lavish grace, and we keep looking to our sins and thinking that they are too much for even God to forgive. But we diminish God in doing so. God’s desire is that none should perish. He wants us to turn and follow Him fully.
My encouragement to you is twofold. First, simply account God to be true to His word. Having repented, leave your sins behind at the cross and do not take them up again. Second, turn and follow Christ. Life is too short to waste any more time being concerned about our confessed sin or whether God will forgive. We must spend the rest of our lives loving God, loving others, and serving Christ by serving others. We must give ourselves to the worship of Him. Those around us need a great deal of love, compassion, care, and God has placed us in this world to do good works for others (Ephesians 2:10). We should train our minds to think about those things that are good and lovely (Philippians 4:8) and set our life’s goal to live out the remainder of our days to the praise of God. If we do these things, if we do what is righteous before Him, He will forget all of our sin and reward us richly with His love and presence. I am always encouraged by Ezekiel 18 where God says that if the wicked ones turn from their wickedness and do righteousness, they will live and not die. Righteousness is found in Jesus who is our righteousness. Once we are grounded in Him, we live out His life in us through the righteous acts we do to one another.
May the Lord Jesus make these truths real to you and may you please Him well in the days ahead, as you leave behind your life of sin.
A fellow pilgrim,