I was shown God’s presence and my eyes were forever opened. Many things had gone wrong in my life: my wife was diagnosed with Rhumatoid Arthritis, my son was diagnosed with Autism at age two, and my wife and I both struggled with horrible depression. One night after our car broke down and I struggled to fix it for hours to no avail, I gave up. This was the last straw; I couldn’t take any more. This was the one straw that broke me; the one that completed the 1,000-pound load! Nothing had gone right for us for years, I was broke, I was depressed horribly, and my marriage was shaky. I couldn’t take anymore. I climbed into the shower and my mind was drawn to the thought of suicide. This was my only out.
I felt so physically drained that I literally fell to the floor of the shower. I was a shell of a human; I wanted to die. I felt so horrible that I thought I might be dying. The weight of my sorrow was literally killing me. This scared me very badly. I called out to God to please save me from this! Please take this off of me! I felt like the weight of the world had been lifted off of me instantly! I stood up then bam! It was back and it knocked me back to the floor. I climbed to my knees and called to God to please help! Please Lord–save me! Again I felt great! I asked God to please make this feeling never go away. I didn’t hear a literal voice but I understood what it was telling me. It’s easy to keep this feeling. All you have to do is remember what happened here tonight! Also, there is no gray in this world; everything and everyone is either black or white–there is no in-between.
And being the skeptical person I am God had to give me a sign to further reassure me (and everyone who hears my story). I had been working on our car all day and my arms were covered in grease, most of which I was scrubbing furiously to no avail before this happened. As I was filled with the Spirit and rejoicing right there in my shower, all the grease ran off of my arms and down the drain. I was moved to tears of joy at this point.
My life has improved 100% since being saved! I have a whole new outlook on absolutely everything. I am almost out of debt and I have been showered with blessings left and right, the best of which is my wife and best friend also being saved. We are warriors for Christ now!
Let me tell you friends, there is evil all around us, and the enemy tries to trick us at every turn. So be vigilant and may God come into your heart and fulfill you as he has done to me. He will deliver you from anything! All you have to do is ask. You will see with new eyes, so you too can be a warrior for him. God bless.