Dennis’ Christian Testimony

I never belonged to a cult, but was a product of the 60’s counter culture, and as such was a hedonistic, narcissistic, existentialist overly impressed by my grasp and understanding of the meaninglessness of life. Sartre, Camus, were to me the gods of knowledge. Drifting through an existential haze of self-centeredness, proclaiming make love not war, and believing that I had a corner on truth, only to find that it led to a void of emptiness. It was as Sartre said, “nothingness.” I drifted through this drugged and hedonistic haze until I was 43 years old. I had been through an eight year marriage, two adulterous affairs and other sordid things, too many to mention. I had recently remarried and moved from Connecticut to Florida with my new wife. My wife’s birthday was nearing and I had remembered her saying once that she would like to have a Bible. As a procrastinator I had put off buying her a gift. Confronted with her birthday the next day I had gone to a book store and purchased her a leather bound, monogrammed Bible. She was surprised that I had remembered her wanting a bible, and was pleased with the gift. The Bible then placed it on her night stand next to our bed–and there it stayed.

I would walk through our bedroom everyday and I would see it lying there, unmoved, unopened and as time progressed I became angry that what I thought to be such a thoughtful gift was being unappreciated. After two or three weeks of this anger building I was walking through our bedroom and my anger became palpable. I remember saying to myself, “How ungrateful. Doesn’t she appreciate what an effort I made to get her that silly book?” At that moment, no sooner after I had thought the above comment, a voice as clear as a bell spoke in my mind, it said, “It’s not for her. It’s for you.” I stood there in our bedroom, dumbfounded by what was a very clear voice in my mind. I picked it up and opened it. It fell open to Acts Chapter 9, and I read of Paul’s conversion, and I was within moments seeing the Truth, and asking Christ into my life. I saw myself kicking against the goads, and my will was broken. That was seven years ago.

I have asked the Lord many times why it was that I had never read the Bible until that moment. I have been an avid reader all of my life and it has always amazed me that I had never opened a Bible, except to look up crosswords puzzle answers, and He told me that all I had read prior to that moment was in preparation, that all the history, philosophy, sociology, psychology was necessary so that I might see all the little half truths and the emptiness of these man-centered answers to life’s questions, and that if I had read His Word prior to that moment, I would have dismissed it as just another book, and that I needed to be at a place where He could reveal complete and inerrant truth to me.

I have for the past seven years seen the Power of God change me in ways that are unfathomable. I am teaching Bible Studies in jail, playing guitar in two different praise bands, and being blessed everyday. God has blessed me with a loving wife, two beautiful children, with a third due in August, all at the age of 51. I have come to learn that yes, “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.” I also believe that how God has worked in my life is proof of what to many is a difficult passage, Romans 8:29-30. It is with a sense of awe and wonder that I now walk through this life–no longer mired in the nothingness of existentialism but walking in eternal purpose, knowing that I will one day see face to face, He who died for me, and that I will be able to humbly bow before Him, proclaim Him Lord and enter into His presence for eternity.

In His Yoke,

Dennis Mullen

One thought on “Dennis’ Christian Testimony”

  1. God is amazing! Thank you for sharing your testimony as there are several parts of your story to which I can relate. I pray you and your family are doing well and God bless!

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