I Think I Have Lost My Salvation

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I am terrified that I have either fallen away or committed blasphemy of the Holy Spirit as the Spirit was trying to lead me to salvation. I know that I need Jesus in my life but am terrified that I am beyond repentance. I think I have lost my salvation.

I accepted Jesus as a teenager and have been an active Christian, serving the Lord, for years. But lately I have felt promptings from God that I need Jesus in my life. I didn’t understand and I argued with God about it, because I was active in the church, serving God and serving others.

The promptings from God subsided suddenly. I have been terrified ever since that I’ve lost my salvation. It has been over a year. I keep asking myself if God gave me over to a reprobate mind because I did not heed His call to salvation (Romans 1:28). I think about death and hell and no longer enjoy life. Is Hebrews 10:27 being fulfilled in my life? I am totally depressed. I am not eating right. My hygiene is bad. I am lazy and unmotivated. Life seems useless. I lost my job. I cannot sleep. I live in constant fear of condemnation.

I used to believe a person had until death to choose Jesus. Now I believe that a person can lose their chance for salvation. I think I have blasphemed the Holy Spirit. If I hadn’t, why do I feel so dead inside and rejected by God?

Am I really damned or is this a trick from the devil?

Tim’s Answer
I have lived long enough to know that a person cannot trust their thoughts or feelings. We may feel that we are saved and are not. We may think we are saved and are not. We may feel that we are lost and are not. We may think we are lost and are not. Our relationship simply is never based on our feelings. Many of the saints of old felt that God had abandoned them, or had become their enemy. Read Job 19, or Lamentations 3, or many of the Psalms. But He had not. Faith is counting God to be true to His promises even when one’s thoughts and feelings do not support that position. As the great apostle John says so well, if our hearts condemn us God is greater than our hearts and knows all things (1 John 3:20). Thus, we do not trust in our feelings, but we trust in God.

I also know that when evil thoughts get into our lives, it is difficult to get them out. Our brains are wired so that what we think about is what we eventually do or become. The more we allow our brains to dwell on matters, the more easily those thoughts dash to the surface of our thinking. We become slaves to what we choose to let our minds consider. The great way of overcoming bad thinking patterns is to renew our minds with Scripture. Memorization forces the mind to create new neural paths. Learning is key to new ways of thinking. This is why it is critical that we take to heart the admonition of Paul to think on good things (Philippians 4:8), to set our minds on things above (Colossians 3:2), to be transformed by the renewing of the mind (Romans 12:2). These are things we are commanded to do.

Now the question of whether you are saved I cannot answer for you, but I can tell you what Scripture says. Scripture states that whoever calls on the name of the LORD will be saved (Romans 10:13). Have you called? If you have, do you think His promise is true? More importantly, are you counting on His promise to be true? Faith is rolling ourselves over on another. Will you trust Him on this issue? When your mind comes and tells you that you are not saved, you need to remind yourself that He made a promise to you–if you call you will be saved. Having called, you are saved. We must trust Him!

Perhaps I am reading your question wrong, but it seems that it portrays an almost fatalistic approach to faith. I know that there are segments within Christianity that teach that God must give us our faith. I do not know if this is part of the teaching you have received. I note that theologians disagree on this point, with strong arguments from Scriptures on both sides. But whichever side is right (and perhaps both are only partly right), Scripture is clear on this point; namely, that God commands us to repent, He commands us to believe, He commands us to love Him and He commands us to follow Him. From our perspective, we cannot expect God to force us to believe, or to obey, or to follow. We simply must believe, obey, and follow. These are things we are commanded to do. We are not without hope. God has come and brought hope to the world through the proclamation of the gospel. Whoever believes in Him will not perish but have eternal life (John 3:16). God did not send His Son to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved (John 3:17). The one who believes in Him is not condemned (John 3:18). The offer of salvation comes to us. Will we receive Him (John 1:12)?

My suggestion to you is that if you have called on the name of Jesus Christ, then you now need to live differently. You need to count God to be true, stop worrying about your own salvation but trust your salvation with Him, and get about the task of doing His will. There are needs in the world that need to be met, people who need to be blessed, lives that need to be touched, kindness that needs to be shared, work that needs to be done. He has provided enough for each day for us to keep busy with His work in this world. We are His workmanship created in Christ Jesus for good works (Ephesians 2:10). We must encourage each other to engage in good works (Titus 3:8). We want even those who speak ill of us to see our good works and glorify God in the day of visitation (1 Peter 2:12). We have a position of being His beloved ones. We have a calling to be His ambassadors, to represent Him well. Time is too short to sit around and mope about ourselves. No good servant ever focuses on his own needs. This is the point of Jesus in the Sermon on the Mount. We need not worry about what we eat, drink or have for clothing. But we must seek first God’s kingdom and His righteousness. Those who hunger and thirst for righteousness will be filled. As God told Cain, if we do what is right, will we not be accepted?

I encourage you to stop worrying about being saved and start serving Him. As God taught Peter, in every nation whoever fears Him and works righteousness is accepted by Him (Acts 10:35). There are two great aspects to living the Christian life. The first is that we stay in tune with God. We need to listen to His Spirit, to take time personally to worship (adore) Him, and to praise Him. God is seeking worshipers (John 4:23) and He is well pleased with the sacrifice of praise (Hebrews 13:15-16). I suggest that throughout your day that you take time to stop and praise God for something, anything, everything. Keep God always in your thoughts. Communicate with Him always. The second great aspect is serving others. Even as Jesus did not come to be served, but to serve, so we are sent as servants into the world. Be a servant. But be a servant sensitive to the leading of the Holy Spirit. Learn not to lean on yourself even as you serve, but learn to lean on the Spirit. Always ask Him what He wants you to do; ask for His guidance. And then live life trusting that He is guiding you. He is faithful to do what we ask, when we ask for these things that are His will.

If you follow these instructions, your life will be changed and you will honor God and find Him once again close with you. Being with Christ is not some mystery. It is simply a matter of trust and walking every moment of every day in His presence, transforming our minds to do His will. I know that it may take some time for the feelings of closeness with God to return. This is because you have been so long in a wrong thinking pattern. Those evil thoughts will return again and again. But if you pursue what is right, over time those thoughts will diminish and you will experience greater and greater victories. And who knows, perhaps God will simply wipe those thoughts out and give you a restored mind quickly. We can always ask.

May the Lord’s Spirit guide you into His truth and welcome you to His side.

36 thoughts on “I Think I Have Lost My Salvation”

  1. People say don’t trust feelings, and I believe that to be a good advice for an unsaved person. But doesn’t scripture talk about God promising a peace that surpasses all understanding. I believe that is a reference to the fruit of the spirit which not only has peace but joy as well. I believe in the prodigal son, why else would the story be in scripture? Repent of whatever sin is in your life. Realize you can’t trust what people say, you have to trust in scripture and the Lord. I’m a hypocrite in this matter because I’ve been emailing and contacting everyone just about hoping to hear a view that sounds biblical and accurate. Our country has done all it can to destroy or water down Christianity. May God have mercy on us

    1. I really struggle with an assurance of salvation. Someone asked me do you believe in Jesus? Believe is to cling to, trust in and rely on Christ alone. I have heard it said that the most simple gospel is ”Jesus in my place.” We must focus not on what horrible sinners we are, but focus on what a great savior He is.

  2. To me it seems like all of us depend way to much on our feelings. Do you think that you lost your salvation and that you can not get it back? Weep wail and beg for God to hear you. He will hear you. Fight with all that is within you to get your walk with Him back.

  3. I have been through the torment and it really does suck! Only for God to show me I was never cut off from him once I believed the gospel. He used that to teach me the true gospel which 90 percent of churches and theologians are not teaching today. There is much confusion and Christians are being paralyzed by false teaching. I appreciate his love and mercy so much now that I know and understand his love and mercy for me is not based what I do or not do but solely on belief in the gospel. This is the criteria he set. Once I embraced this truth fully it lit a fire in my heart and soul that can never be quenched! To know that He is not ashamed to call me his child and to give me his Spirit is the greatest FREE gift in all the world!!

  4. When Peter looked at Jesus he walked on water. When he looked at the waves he sank. When the Israelites looked at the brass snake on the pole (a foreshadowing of Jesus on the cross) they were healed of their snake bites! I’m saying this from experience! Look to Jesus!! Not your sin. Satan fights dirty. He will bring up all of our sins and accuse us. We are to fix our eyes on Jesus though, not our sins or our list of Do’s and dont’s. Break free from legalism and believe in a God that will never give up on us. This is what I fight to do everyday.

  5. God is merciful. Where there is life there is hope. Look at the parable of the prodigal son. He didn’t even return for good and godly reasons, but selfish ones. He didn’t seem to be thinking ” I really miss fellowship with my father.” NO he was hungry and destitute. Maybe you can lose your salvation, but maybe you can be saved again. I am not sure. Part of me thinks that once you are saved and an adopted child than it is hard if not impossible to become out of Christ. If you were outside of Christ why would you even be interested in this blog. You would love your sin.God knows that we have feet of clay and are made of dust. Read psalm 51 Davids psalm of repentance…

  6. “Jesus answered, “The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent.””
    ‭‭John‬ ‭6:29‬ ‭NIV‬‬

    Salvation is so simple, it is easy for the devil to Decieve and mess with your head. This is why we can’t look to ourselves, we must look to Christ!

    “But I fear, lest by any means, as the serpent beguiled Eve through his subtilty, so your minds should be corrupted from the simplicity that is in Christ.”
    ‭‭2 Corinthians‬ ‭11:3‬ ‭KJV‬‬

    “For since in the wisdom of God the world through its wisdom did not know him, God was pleased through the foolishness of what was preached to save those who believe.”
    ‭‭1 Corinthians‬ ‭1:21‬ ‭NIV‬‬

  7. Once you are made spiritually alive by the Holy Spirit, you can never spiritually die, because Christ died for ALL of our sins. That means I don’t have to pay for one sin. We have the freedom to worship and know our God unlimitedly. He can now love and accept us completely even in the midst of our sun he will never leave us because he made a promise and swore upon himself. Adam brought sin and death, Christ came to give forgiveness and life.
    the devil never wants you to know the truth, he wants keep us in fear, doubt, anxiety. So we never share our faith or grow to maturity in Christ. He knows once we know the truth we will be set free and his power of bondage will be broken.

  8. I’ve been round and round this merry go round
    I developed severe Scrupulosity/ OCD because of it
    Nick response have greatly encouraged me
    I desire Jesus so bad it hurts
    God is love above all else and scriptures say mercy triumphs over judgement
    If I’m not mistaken it is Holy Spirit who draws us
    We can’t desire Him if He isn’t placing this in our hearts
    Those who’ve fully rejected Christ have no desire at all and therefore won’t want to return to Him
    As Tim had written about the Prodigal son, it’s my hope He truly desires us and will not cast away anyone who comes to Him
    WhenHr said I will never leave you nor forsake you
    In Greek the word never in that is a triple negative… He can’t lie
    Tho we may grieve Him this…

  9. Dear Truthsaves,
    I have a genuine question. I believe God lead me to Hebrews last fall when I was struggling with serious doubts about my salvation. The fear passages in Hebrews terrified me even more, which made me doubt and fear even more. Many things have happened since last year, but I have hardened heart that I can feel physically in my chest. I fear this state is permanent. Why would God punish me by allowing me to fall into unbelief when apostasy and a hard heart were the things I feared the most? How does one have faith if there is a constant fear of apostasy? I never wanted to disobey God, but I fear I did. I know the truth, but every day I am aware of the hardness in my heart. Do you have any advice?

  10. Ask Jesus to Forgive you. Accept Jesus’ offer of Forgiveness and never stop Thanking Him. If you are having trouble with this Ask Jesus to Forgive your sin of unbelief. Ask Jesus to help you with this son of unbelief. Thank Jesus for what He Has Done for you. Go to Jesus In Prayer. Concentrate on Jesus, not yourself or your sins. Confess your sins to Jesus. When satan torments you Ask Jesus to help you. Thank Jesus For Loving sinners like you (me, us). Jesus Is Everything Good. Go to Jesus to Thank Him. Tell Jesus How Much You Love Him. Find Scriptures that support this and write them down. Jesus Loves us, Jesus Forgives us, Jesus Saves us. Thank Jesus and Tell Jesus How Much you Love Him. Jesus Deserves this. Jesus Restores us.

  11. Here’s an answer from Tim from an earlier question, that I found comforting:-)

    As we wrote earlier, a focus on whether you committed the unpardonable sin is simply unhelpful. You never find any of the Scriptural writers telling people in their churches that because they had committed the unpardonable sin, there was no hope for them. Such is simply never the thought process of Scripture. Rather, everyone, everywhere, can hope in the God who is mercy. In fact, God delights in those who hope in His mercy (Psalm 147:11). Re-read Luke 15 in case you have any question of Jesus’ view towards sinners who return to Him.
    I encourage you to trust Christ, and Him alone, for your salvation. It is not our works of righteousness or unrighteousness…

  12. God provided that for you. That’s how much he loves you. It’s amazing. Anyway, that all happened within a few seconds, but the most comforting part for me was, when this is all over, we can be in a place of eternal rest. Forever! No more pain. I think back to how scripture says that Jesus suffered, and how we are to share in his suffering. Guys just keep the faith. Hopefully more to come. Keep going.

  13. HJ, I am Praying for you. Do you go to Church? I go to a Pentacostal Church where I can Praise and Tell Jesus how much I Love Him. Others Proclaim their Love and Gratitude to Jesus also. This is a Wonderful Blessing. Scripture Says that to do The Work Of God, one should Believe on Whom He Sent. John 6:29. HJ, Jesus Loves you so Much.

  14. Be encouraged:
    John 6: 37All that the Father giveth me shall come to me; and him that cometh to me I will in no wise cast out.

    John 6: 44No man can come to me, except the Father which hath sent me draw him: and I will raise him up at the last day.

    You cannot of your own want or desire Him UNLESS God Himself is drawing you to Jesus
    And if you seek Him and go to Him He will NEVER cast you away
    Its possible to grieve Holy Spirit but He cannot lie nor break His promises

    Hebrews 13: 5b for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.

    The word ” never” here in the original Greek is a triple negative: never,never,never will He leave or forsake us
    He is faithful even if we are not because He cannot deny Himself
    He is…

  15. I finally came to the end of my self, no amount of church attendance, prayer, fasting, giving, would ever be enough to undue the things I have done or will do; it will never be enough to stand in his presence boasting over my great accomplishments. My only hope was on the basis of his love and mercy

    1. NOTHING we can do will undue anything we’ve done, but EVERYTHING that Christ did makes us white as snow. His mercy, grace and love are what save us and we can have faith in that! The most solid promise in all of eternity – the gospel.

  16. Guess whose been given the gift of Eternal Life? 🙂 Faith in the real Jesus Christ is worth more than gold. Keep trying to find him.Trust me, he’s alive and well.

  17. Jesus pulled me out of the darkest place of my life and turned me around and has been healing me. I have a peace I’ve never had before. He showed me I was believing lies, then forgave me and set me free!! He lead me to meditate and speak “Perfect love casts out fear” Use the word its our…

    1. Sorry to bother you, HJ. But can I ask what you did for the Lord to restore you? I am interested in knowing.

      Because, I want to be freed from sin, and restored, to be honest.

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