Have you every felt lost? Have you ever felt like something was missing in your life?
I have always believed in Jesus, but in my childhood, I would never spend any time praying or reading scripture, I use to spend most of my day watching TV or playing video games which was laziness in every aspect including spiritually. I was addicted to sexual pleasures of the flesh for years. The ways of wrong were in my daily activity. I was spiritually blind and did not see the errors of my ways. I was disrespectful to my parents. In my speech there was filth and profanity. I did not have the Lord in my life. When I was nineteen, a serious revelation in my commitment to God occurred; I realized that I wanted a stronger relationship with my God. At first I was crushed emotionally thinking it was too late to develop a deep relationship with God. I viewed my self as such a wretched sinner, and I felt that I deserved hell. I condemned myself. I knew that in every way I was guilty. I wondered if God would forgive me. I hated the actions I committed in my past.
My spirit was crushed and burdened, Godly sorrows flooded my heart, pain consumed my soul, and I felt in every way hopeless. The thought of not honoring Jesus Christ’s sacrifice on the cross hurt, but then it hit me – God’s mercy is everlasting and He wants us to come back to Him.
I cried out to the Lord Jesus Christ. I said that I forgave everyone that ever that wronged me and asked Him to forgive me, asking Him for a heart of flesh, to remove any stony areas in my heart, and to give me a heart of purity. Soon after things changed. Through the Scriptures a deep love for God soon developed and I began to get to know God and our Lord Jesus Christ.
I developed a hatred of sin in my daily life. I am in no way perfect but through much sincere prayer and through Christ which strengthens me, I sin much less and stay away from things of the flesh, and am spiritually minded. I have, by the mercy of the loving Lord Jesus Christ, become alive in spirit and have received the Holy Ghost. Thanks to Jesus Christ who has entered my life, my nature is one of peace and I have become more caring and respecting of others around me. Jesus Christ changed me.
I want to help others know truth; I am forever humbled that God’s grace came upon me. Jesus Christ guides me in the ways of truth and has strengthened my spirit. “I once was blind but now I see.” Our Lord Jesus Christ wants to come into our life and help us, but we must open the door of our hearts and call upon Him asking Him to be a part of our lives and help us. It is the realization of how truly hopeless we are without Jesus Christ that allows us to truly reach out fully to him.
THANK God our heavenly Father for our Savior and Lord Jesus Christ.
Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me.
Revelation 3:20 (ESV)
The LORD is near to the brokenhearted and saves the crushed in spirit.
Psalm 34:18 (ESV)
For godly grief produces a repentance that leads to salvation without regret, whereas worldly grief produces death.
2 Corinthians 7:10 (ESV)
And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.
Ezekiel 36:26 (ESV)
For God, who said, “Let light shine out of darkness,” has shone in our hearts to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ.
2 Corinthians 4:6 (ESV)
I can do all things through him who strengthens me.
Phillipians 4:13 (ESV)