About 3 years ago I dropped into a black hole – four months of absolute terror. I wanted to end my life, but somehow (Holy Spirit), I reached out to a friend who took me to a hospital. I had three hospital visits in four months – I actually thought I was in hell. I imagined I was going through some sort of metamorphosis (mental, physical & spiritual). I had been seeing a therapist (1994) on a regular basis, up until this point in time. I actually thought I would be locked away – but the hospital staff was very supportive (I had no control over my process). I was released from hospital September 16th, 1994, but my fear, pain & shame had only subsided a little. I remember this particular morning waking up at home and my process started up again (fear, pain, & shame). No one could help me, not even my therapist and I was terrified. I asked Jesus Christ to have mercy on me and forgive me of my sins. Slowly, all my fear has dissipated and I believe Jesus delivered me from my “psychological prison.” I am a practicing Catholic and the Holy Spirit is my friend and strength; every day since then has been a joy and blessing. I deserve to go to hell for the life I have led, but Jesus, through His sacrifice on the cross, delivered me from my iniquities. John 3:8 and John 15:26 are verses I can relate to, organically. He (Jesus) is a real person who is with me all the time. I have so much joy and peace in my life today, after a childhood spent in orphanages (England & Australia). God LOVES me so much. Fear, pain, and shame are no longer my constant companions. I just wanted to share my experience with you (Luke 8: 16–17).
Peace Be With You
Micky
Micky God loves you so much that he wanted his relationship with you to be personal and intimate. He can deliver you from everything. You don’t have to pray through saints or work to be saved. The bible says that Jesus is the only mediator between God and man. I recommend that you find a protestant church to grow deeper in the truth. With love