About 3 years ago I dropped into a black hole – four months of absolute terror. I wanted to end my life, but somehow (Holy Spirit), I reached out to a friend who took me to a hospital. I had three hospital visits in four months – I actually thought I was in hell. I imagined I was going through some sort of metamorphosis (mental, physical & spiritual). I had been seeing a therapist (1994) on a regular basis, up until this point in time. I actually thought I would be locked away – but the hospital staff was very supportive (I had no control over my process). I was released from hospital September 16th, 1994, but my fear, pain & shame had only subsided a little. I remember this particular morning waking up at home and my process started up again (fear, pain, & shame). No one could help me, not even my therapist and I was terrified. I asked Jesus Christ to have mercy on me and forgive me of my sins. Slowly, all my fear has dissipated and I believe Jesus delivered me from my “psychological prison.” I am a practicing Catholic and the Holy Spirit is my friend and strength; every day since then has been a joy and blessing. I deserve to go to hell for the life I have led, but Jesus, through His sacrifice on the cross, delivered me from my iniquities. John 3:8 and John 15:26 are verses I can relate to, organically. He (Jesus) is a real person who is with me all the time. I have so much joy and peace in my life today, after a childhood spent in orphanages (England & Australia). God LOVES me so much. Fear, pain, and shame are no longer my constant companions. I just wanted to share my experience with you (Luke 8: 16–17).
Peace Be With You