I have sinned again. Deliberately. I have repented again. I have been through this cycle time and time again. Sin intentionally. Avoid God. Feel bad. Ask God for forgiveness. Feel better. Live with Him. Give in to temptation and enjoy it. Live without God for a while . . . this cycle makes me feel as though my repentance isn’t real. Maybe I’m just living in a completely deceived state, thinking I’m forgiven when I’m really not.